Muse.

i hope everyone is having a festive lunar new year wherever they may be. and thank you for the well wishes that i have received over the past few days. it has been almost 4 years since i have celebrated chinese new year in malaysia or singapore and to be honest, i really do miss all the festive tidbits that comes with the festival. don't get me wrong, it's not that i cannot find them in australia, it's just that the quality and taste is different, if you know what i mean. yes i know, i am a very fussy eater, hence many people may understand why i always insist on local food when i travel back haha.

i have been hooked on the jdrama liar game these past few days. for some reason, i could hardly immerse myself into those american psychological thriller series such as csi, to me it seems to be missing that something that liar game and galileo brings. some of you may recognise erika toda (love those eyes) from her role as misa in death note. somehow i love to watch shows that dives into the human psyche. what could compel someone to act this way? why are you doing this to me? i find topics about the human mind very intresting. is it really that easy to break down a person's mental state, to be able to control and manipulate him or her? how can i avoid it? some may think i am a sadistic son of a bitch for enjoying watching these kind of shows, but as quoted from an old movie, "i just want to see what makes you tick, my dear." i personally believe, it is not wrong to know how to manipulate and control someone, however it is more of a guard of what may be used against me. it is not the knowledge which makes it evil, but the motive to abuse it that makes it evil. to tell the truth, i actually considered taking up criminology as my undergraduate study back then, (hospitality coming a close second) and sometimes i have to wonder, would i have truly enjoy it? i may never know. "the human mind is, indeed a dangerous thing."

i want a poster of this picture!

another valentine's day is coming up soon, and honestly, it saddens me a little to be alone again this year but its okay, i know eventually it will not be so. for some reason, two faces came to mind as i was typing this up. it has been a while since i thought about ny, wherever she may be, i seriously wish her happiness always. and of her, what could she be thinking off right now?

The way to love anything
is to realize that it might be lost.